People come to me when they're going through an awakening phase of Life.
There's a powerful force moving within them: their emerging creativity.
Some of my students are beginners who want to explore something new. Many others were creative or artistic as children, but they suppressed their creativity for a long time, years or maybe even decades, in order to get by in the world.
Creativity is an elemental force of nature. Only for so long can it be stifled or contained, before the dam bursts and floods.
Simply saying "yes" to your creativity, after years of saying "no", can be cathartic.
And . . . a lot of "stuff" can come up, too.
Stuff like: childhood wounds from a teacher, parent or authority figure saying we weren't good enough, or who dismissed or even mocked something we created.
Or comparison with others who seem far more skilled and talented, on a level that seems unreachable.
Or the fears of being imperfect, and feeling vulnerable about having our imperfections on display for all to see.
Or even feeling like we are wrong or selfish to want to explore our creativity.
This is stuff that just about every creative person feels.
And when you're just beginning, or returning to creativity after a long absence, this stuff is magnified. It can feel powerfully overwhelming or even unbearable.
Especially when the creative impetus comes in tandem with crisis, as it so often does. The breakup of a relationship, an illness or injury, or a creeping realization that the life we've been living isn't the one we actually want.
If this happens to you, know this: this emergence of your long-lost creativity is a gift.
It's giving you a direction: the direction that your soul wants to grow.
It's also probably clashing against everything you have been trained and conditioned to seek and value.
You see, creativity is about experiences much more than material outcomes. It's about play, experimentation, and the trial and error process in which things go wrong more often than they go right.
Creativity requires going in the direction of the unknown, when we don't know if we will succeed or fail.
Creativity is not about playing it safe, or following formulas. It's inherently risky.
Which is why, we as a culture, are terrified of creativity.
As people who have been brought up in an ego-driven, materialistic culture, we see time spent without a guaranteed product as wasted time.
We see the potential for embarrassing failures and we want to hide in shame. We see that people could misunderstand us or laugh at us, and we want to protect our image and ego at all costs.
We see that we could spend money, time and energy on endeavors and perhaps not realize a return on our investment in a material, measurable sense, right away.
If we subscribe to all the training and conditioning we have received from our culture, any creative endeavor is an act of insanity. It's an act of rebellion. It conflicts with everything we've been taught.
When you feel the force of your creativity arise in you, clashing against all the "stuff", I encourage you to use this as an opportunity to explore and learn about yourself.
It's an opportunity to get curious about who you really are, and what you really want.
Do you really share the values that have been imposed upon you by the ego culture?
Or do you value something else entirely?
Maybe, after sitting for awhile with the uncomfortable conflict . . . you might realize that what's precious to you is a sunset sky, or the sound of waves at the beach, or the heartbeat of a loved one.
Maybe you feel a lifting or expansion of your heart when you see a great piece of art or witness a moving performance. Maybe your hands long to touch surfaces and explore in a tactile way. Maybe you yearn to dance or sing or write.
Maybe you feel that you are missing something in your life, and you don't feel satisfied.
Maybe, when considering everything
you've been subconsciously taught
about protecting and building up your ego,
you might wonder if the culture we live in
is what is actually insane,
and not you.
A culture which dictates that the vast majority of us must be consumers, never creators, of factory-made and grown products. A culture based on consumption, to the point that we are rapidly depleting our Earth's resources and causing destruction and extinction of the very Life that we depend on.
A culture based on money, that ranks people according to how much money they possess, and assigns value to things based on the price tag.
A culture that only sees the value of Nature in terms of what materials can be extracted for sale and trade, and will not replenish what is taken away.
A culture far removed from the way all humans lived until recently - a life interwoven with craft, ceremony, art, dance, song, and story.
If the creative force brings up uncomfortable feelings, maybe that's a good thing.
Maybe it means it's time for a change.
If your creativity is awakening, it's a sign, it's a calling.
Creativity is calling you to your humanity and your belonging to the natural order of things, which is a continual creative process of change, growth, life, death and renewal.
Creativity is calling you to let go of your fears.
Creativity is calling you to open your mind, and experiment with ways of being that are more honoring of your spirit, and less harmful to our world.
Creativity is calling you to become more aligned with your natural self.
There is nothing more natural for human beings than to be creative, to make and invent things and express themselves.
You can be a creative person. You're supposed to be. That isn't something that is reserved for the select few. But at this time in history, it is a choice.
It may be the most important choice you will ever make, to honor and embrace who you really are, and express your true self.
Say YES to your creative nature!
I'D LOVE TO KNOW:
Have you experienced conflict opposing your creativity?
Where is the conflict coming from?
How do you deal with the conflict?
Feel free to share in the comments!